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bee a bear

by rushmore beekeepers

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nothing is wrong with me i can’t repair nothing is wrong with me when i’m not there yeah, sometimes i can’t wait to be home get so scared whenever i go out have to talk a lot and smile around hoping i don’t say something out of turn all the people that i know, and all the people that i see wonder if they know the effect they have on me the girl at the diner said no gorilla masks don’t want to rob the place just don’t want to be asked, hey how are you on this lovely afternoon don’t answer the door when i’m home alone could be someone important, always someone i don’t know let them ring that bell, and i won’t move all the people that i don’t know, and all the people that i don’t see i know they know the effect they have on me
almost fall 02:01
cooling down a little bit, almost fall and we will sit in our backyard in our long scarves watching dogs chase aeroplanes words we both say will dance and play we will kiss and they will stay in both our hearts as we part and as we join together again dance around my pretty lady to a song we both know well close your eyes and when your rise i will be right there by your side when winter comes it will be fun to be cold for a month or two the desert’s strong, cold won’t last long we want to wear jackets every day of the year
if i were a boat i’d sail the open sea and i’d always be sure to take you with me if i were an animal, i’d want to be a bear and i’d scare away anyone who wanted to do you harm da da, da da, da da, da da da da if i were a dog i’d probably be a mutt and i’d look really funny but i’d give you all my love and if i were a house i’d be this house, here for you no matter how bad your day was i’m just me but i want to be all these things all these things, and everything you need
always remember my nightmares never remember my good dreams but when i wake and you are next to me nothing’s as bad as it seems never remember the things that you say to me always remember the way that you say them but i want to give you more happiness than you could ever spend always like it complicated never looking for some simple thing but when i see that look that you give me i have no trouble believing so let’s go out and lie in the park always and nevers lost in the dark i’ve made more promises than i have told but never more than my hands can hold
quiet here 02:54
it's so hard without you here, i don't know what to do with myself it's so easy to stay busy and not do much of anything it's so hard to stay at home, but i don't want to go out it's so hard to stay at home and not make lots of noise and i make lots of noise it gets so quiet here it gets too quiet here i can hear myself i take things apart and put them back together, not in a way that's smart they're never quite right afterward it's so easy to get distracted by things that do not matter some things they do not matter it gets so quiet here, it gets so quiet here, it gets too quiet here i can hear myself i can hear myself think
when i read what you said about christmas, you were just listening to records and drinking oh, when i heard about you, that’s all i was thinking when i saw your picture in the news, smiling from the local obituary was like your ghost was there, looking at me well, i can’t remember the time and place i was talking to you was it about bob dylan, or did i say something rude well, i might hear one of your bass lines in some song that i’m playing you might turn to me and smile what’s that you were saying put on my morning jacket and went for a walk in the desert cold and spent my day wondering what you’d look like if you got old
the new year came and i wasn’t ready over halfway over and i’m holding steady there are some things I’d like to do don’t know what they are, it’s true i’ve never made a resolution there are times i want to tell you everything i can but i stop myself from acting stupid because i don’t understand what it means to rise above this playing field these teams we’re supposed to be a part of i’d rather sit out this whole game there are mornings i wake up i can see more years in my face than i can own up to i hold steady at this erratic pace these years have come and gone, though i tried hard to hold on i’ve never made a resolution these people have come and gone, though i tried hard to hold on i’ve never made a resolution
the list 02:09
not sure i believe it yet, i keep hoping you faked your death hoping it’s all a big joke and you’ll reappear in a cloud of smoke i’m reading all these goodbyes online, i’m not ready to say mine looking for your name in the paper, just to see not really sure if you meant it, i’m really hoping that you didn’t thought more people would beat you to the end but the list wraps around and back again once i can’t find you anywhere, i’ll admit that you are nowhere to be found maybe in the sky or in the ground
come now my darling, shed all your fears anything we might need is already here you watch the sky, i’ll keep my ear to the ground we’ll discover nothing like the happiness we’ve found the gamblers throw everything at the hope of a win but you were a sure bet from the very beginning and show lines they form long after we’re gone we don’t need entertainment, we can sing our own songs ambiguous waiters, gondolas, evening light, or Mexican restaurants in the middle of the night the time we have together, it is always spent well our love is like a sweet take on some fairy tale six hundred miles from what was our home we mixed our possessions and made our own the years they come, they come and they leave for each one we have, that’s one less to grieve
glad new day 03:42
main street is heaven tonight my car is the only one on the road i could close my eyes and go through all the red lights and make it home up too late with nothing to say and i left early even though you asked me to stay the morning light is far too blue for me not to be with you and i wish i had stayed but there will be another day there is something wonderful about everything you do and never enough ways to say just how i feel about you nothing feels quite the same now that you’re around to blame for this good feeling and my door opens to a glad new day the stars shine like dreams and the galaxy spins exactly as it seems for the first time in a long time, i feel all right
kids are playing in the street the neighbors are pulling the trash cans in i can hear dogs barking, cars driving by you are sleeping in the next room i’m whispering so i don’t wake you just want you to know you make anyplace feel like home with all the lights left on at night the stars don’t have room to shine we will see them on the road, they’ll fade into view you are waking in the next room and i’m whispering to softly wake you and you should know you make anyplace feel like home
i’ll be leaving in the morning, i’ll be gone and on my way i’ll be looking for you, darling, every single step i take the road may be long and winding and i’m no good at directions but i will find my way across, yes, i will find my way i’ll buy a bag of flower seeds and when they finally bloom i’ll tie a ribbon ‘round the stem and deliver them to you the soil’s bad and water’s scarce and the weeds they grow so tall but they will find a way to blossom, they will find their way this trucker’s atlas is too old, these roads are all shut down the planes have all been grounded but the buses they got out may take some time to get there and my feet are worn and sore but i will find my way to you, yes, i will find my way saw each other on the road between nowhere and nowhere else you were with your dogs and i was by myself my map was torn and faded but you had one of your own and we will find our way across, yes, we will find our way


released March 11, 2012

All songs written by Zach Fountain.

Album art / design by Amanda Hawkins! ahhh-design.com


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rushmore beekeepers Tulsa, Oklahoma

Indie folk/electro folk duo RBK (Zach Fountain and Amanda Hawkins) layer folk instruments with keyboards and electro beats while covering the pivotal themes in life: love, adventure, impermanence, and occasionally the apocalypse.

Based in OK and AZ, the solo/duo act plays shows brimming with emotion, banter, and forgotten lyrics at coffee shops, bars, and houses across the USA.
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